My Confession

losing will and motivation

2008-12-24T06:04:00.000-08:00

Ku tutup mataku
Dari semua pandanganku
Bila melihat matamu
Kuyakin ada cinta ketulusan hati
Yang mengalir lembut

Penguasa Alam
Tolonglah pegangi aku
Biar ku tak jatuh
Pada sumur dosa yang terkutuk
Dan menyesatkan cintaku
Andaikan ku bisa
Lebih adil pada cinta kau dan dia

Aku bukan Nabi yang bisa sempurna
Ku tak luput dari dosa
Biarlah ku hidup seperti ini
Takdir cinta harus begini
Ada kau dan dia bukan ku yang mau
Oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku

a break that isnt a break

2008-12-12T22:35:00.001-08:00

no im not happy.
im only trying to control it.
fuck me.

everyone's right.
im wrong.

does anyone know.
does anyone care.
does anyone think.

humans are pathetic.
and so it's proven

no use no purpose no hope

2008-11-15T11:02:00.001-08:00

here i am. outside. in the middle of the night. feeling all sick and messed up. thoughts running all over my head. what and why. i don't understand and never will. what to do. what happened. why it happened. why me. what is it with me that anyone that sees my face will get angry or something bad will happen. doesn't anyone appreciate what i do. doesn't anyone understand why i can't do this and that. why is it that my efforts to make something good goes to waste. or anyone will only remember it for 5 seconds. or wont remember it at all. whats so different between me and them. i dont understand. i prayed. i've put all my effort. i've been patient. only that nowadays i've been more unrealistic and temperamental. why. i ask god why!? why!? WHY!?

why me and not anyone else. what's my purpose here if everything i do is wrong and nothing can make a tick out of it. why was i ever been born in the first place. born with no purpose but to be hated. give me one good reason why. be a slave to everyone? feed everyone's needs? i rather die! i rather be away from them if it keeps me from making them unhappy. take my life and i'll shut the fuck up! i prayed to you and you dont even answered me once! what's the fucking point! is there even a point! i'm not insulting but im questioning you! ever since that day my tears never stopped rolling! it keeps roling till now! till when? till i die!? then go ahead do it!

i loved everyone. especially the gf. you know how much i really loved her. you know what i'll do just to make her happy. but what are you trying to prove god. i'm not the person she really dreamt of having. im not rich. i've a lowly life. i'm boring. i;m not like any other guy! or any other guy she talks to! i'm the worst. the worst fucker to be around her. the biggest jerk ever. the family got a replacement eldest child. maybe she should have a replacement too. i'm never a good use allah. never was. but i want you to know. my feelings are true. for her. for everyone. i don't care what people say. i don't care what people think.

so please. help me. for the last time i'm asking. please help me god. i'm hopeless.you see me crying here. you see your own man crying. you know what's in him. i'm not as strong as you think i would be.

i'm not. :'(

i'll die to satisfy everyone

2008-11-01T20:39:00.000-07:00

no one better to cheer me up after a long week than the gf.
went out with her.
spent some quality time together.
watched the coffin.
and im already sick before we went out.
but i just had to get out.
i wont be able to see her for 2 weeks by the time i book in.
sayang punyer pasal kan.

once all that's over.
i went back home.
and fuck the fever just got worst.
and so what if i got fever.
im still fucked by everyone even if im sick.
even when i cant help it.
especially when i cant do things.
im tired, im fucking tired.
im unwell. how the fuck can i control myself from not vomiting?
is it wrong to vomit?
because i vomited i got fucked.

whatever lah.
i've no feelings what.
you guys pretend that i can meet all your expectations.
well guess what. i cant.
no matter how hard i try.
i can't do everything right ok.
im human. im just a fucking human being.
ive feelings. i get sick.
the more i give in. the more time i got stepped on.
i rather die than be sick.
that'll surely make everyone happy.
goodbye. confinement week. im sure you guys will enjoy.
:'(

fucked up

2008-10-31T11:43:00.000-07:00

i never had a good book out before.
and im damn serious.
its been 7 weeks.
6 book outs.
and all of them,
i will end up pissed off.
or miserable.

fuck the family.
tonight they're supposed to fetch me at 10.30.
ok good they're early.
in my mind is set.
go home straight, wash up and call the gf.
but no. they had to go eat.
when they had ample of time to have dinner before they fetch me.
how mny fucking times must i tell you when i book out at night,
i would have already eaten!
assholes. how long do you guys need to eat?!
3 fucking hours!?
and you have the cheek to even eat slowly!
whats your point? im fucking stone.
and you guys made me even more pissed off with your actions.
small matters made into big matters.
when you guys should have been the mature one.
the ones who can keep their cool. but no.
u guys became fools tothis fucking thing called temper.
something i can control and you dont!

or is it something about me?
even the gf is telling me that.
pfft. maybe it is me.
i know where i fucking stand.
i give in and never i asked for anything.
and i got stepped on.
i put more priority on my loved ones.
and as th saying goes.
harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi.
fucking cibai!

im not a happy happy man today.
im miserable. tired. and..
oh fuck off la bitches!

cofinement

2008-10-22T20:14:00.000-07:00

nothing's changed.
they talk as if they really mean it.
ignored when available.
desperately searched for when i'm not.
:s

screwed up

2008-09-28T06:24:00.000-07:00

im not in the mood the celebrate
fuck ramadan
fuck hari raya
FO

emotional wreck

2008-09-09T09:12:00.000-07:00

shaven head.
lousy phone.
things i need to make up for.
so many things.
so little time.

take care everyone.
this will be my last post.
won't be around for 2 weeks.
so keep me updated alright.

i'm gonna miss everyone.
family,
friends,
and most definitely,
the gf, ayuni.

i've made my mstakes.
but nothing was intentional.
i'm sorry for everything.
i'm such a wreck to everyone.
when nothing i do seems right.

hopefully this experience will make me a better man.
for everyone,
for myself.

take care.
goodbye.

first day

2008-08-31T21:15:00.000-07:00

these tears won't stop.
is it still counted?

how to break fast with fun in it

2008-08-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

With ramadan drawing closer. When i say drawing closer i mean in only 2 days! Haha! The gf have to pay back the remaining fast days from the previous ramadan. We decided to break fast together outside. I didn't fast lah but i didn't eat ok! huhu! 2 straight days of going out and eating out. bought each other stuffs. well just take a look and you'll find out what. :]

270808

she's tired

posing nampak

lawa lah tu

DESSERT!!

it's a random photo which i like

when football meets gamelan

280808

background lawa nmpk

showing off her belly dancing skills

hi. nama saya mee siam

anyone need a horror move poster?

my personal favourite

mini cooper s clubman

2008-08-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

You're mine!
I don't care how much you'll cost!
HAHA!

fuck off

2008-08-24T06:19:00.000-07:00

Every single person in this house is pissing me off. The two brothers. What a nuisance. Can't you guys shut the fuck up for one day!? For one fucking day!? Can't you do that? Why do you have to spoil my mood every single weekend!? And dad, I'm not schooling! So why do you keep telling me that internet is for school use only!? You're the one with no brains so SHUT UP! Don't even bother sending me off on the 12th. I don't need you guys. You guys will be so happy when i'm gone, so fuck off. You all have spoiled my mood for the last time. Talk about caring for each other's feeling. Who's the one making those sacrifices now. Fucktards.

work time fun

2008-08-19T23:51:00.000-07:00

We became a working couple for a day. Both of us having busy with our own individual assignments/work to settle. May sound like we didn't have much fun this few days. But still we tried to squeeze in some "kecohness" in whatever we are doing. Since there's no better and convenient place to do our work, we decided to do it in the national library. (For a moment there this sentence sounds so wrong huh. Do it in the library? HAHA!) OK whatever. I was doing my stupid flash document. She had to do a research on advertising. I'm close to finishing, she's only starting. And she had to use my laptop which left me with nothing to do. So what did i do? Since she will definitely, confirm punyer stress, i let the joker in me out. Haha. It was difficult to keep our voices down bla3. I had to whisper2 lalala. so i think she got fed up. She used the notepad to communicate. and i give head signals. Hehe. This was our conversation (Excluding me duh. I'm using head signals kan.)

Ayuni:
i love u!
hee....
do u love me???
??????????
HAHAHA
jelly siao
nod head many times for what
i want kiss :(
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
want some more heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
want.........teddy!
heee
jelly...
why u so cute
eeeeeeeeh
tak tau malu
apek tu punye mulot terbukak
nak kene campak kasut i masuk dalam
tengok kepale dier dah nak jatuh
jahat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sebab u double jahat!heee
tak
i tak jahat
i pon tak naughty
u je
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
u paling jahaaaaaaaaaat sekali dua kalo
tiga kall 4 kali 5 kali
jelly melapmau

Note the spelling errors. Haha. She went crazy in the library. For every sentence or every mistake she makes in the sentence, i will randomly come out with something stupid. Don't ask me how i suddenly got those stupid ideas, it just came to me. :]

P.S She is very pampered. :]

photoshop

2008-08-16T21:26:00.000-07:00

sunday morning at the library with my Jelly. He refuses to update as often as he could, so I've decided to write a thing or two here. He made a new discovery with Flash MX today and yes thanks to ME, he got it right. Hahaha. Now Jelly wants to speak:

_____________________________________________________ .

And i've got nothing to say. hahaha. back to work! And baby's very naughty eh today. Spank your butt baru tau.

cause the gf told me to do so. heh

2008-08-15T08:26:00.000-07:00

I really need to eat more.
I need that energy to work.
Maybe i can follow Michael Phelp's everyday diet.
This is what i have to eat every single day.

BREAKFAST:
- 3 fried egg sandwiches
- 2 cups of coffee
- A five-egg omelette
- A bowl of grits (what's this?)
- 3 slices of French Toast
- 3 chocolate chip pancakes

LUNCH:
- 1/2kg enriched pasta
- 2 large ham and cheese sandwiches
- 1, 000 calories worth of energy drinks

DINNER:
- 1/2kg pasta
- 1 pizza
- 1, 000 calories worth of energy drinks

hahahaha.
i'm going to be so fat if i eat al those.
so who's going to join me for dinner?
i'm having pizza!

FOR YOUR INFORMASI:

Noisy sex gets man banned from apartment

LONDON - A British man has been banned from visiting his girlfriend's home after neighbors complained about noisy sex, a local official said Thursday.

A court barred Adam Hinton, 32, from being within 110 yards of the apartment of his 29-year-old girlfriend, Kerry Norris, Brighton and Hove City Council spokesman Mike Taggart said.

Residents of Norris' publicly owned home had been complaining since 2006 about thumping music, banging headboards and screamed obscenities, Taggart said.

heh.

saturday

2008-08-09T07:13:00.000-07:00

nice not my new skin! heee. the gf made it for me. all i had to do was choose the fonts. lol. ape nye bf. it turned out better than expected. i really really really like it! ok stop it fiz or you'll never stop. haha. the gf dedicated a song to me. a beautiful song by mariah kari. haha. go see her blog to listen ok. another dreading weekend. the family left me for johor since morning. i was all alone. boohoo. then supergirl came to save me. haha. and we've been talking till right now. well a few minutes ago before i started blogging lah. today is national day. so what. i cant be bothered to even watch the parade. haha. ppl have been asking me. never take ayuni to the fireworks. i wish i could ppl. i wish i could. situations are getting tougher2 at the moment. but im not backing down. never will. gf had her problematic situation. now solved. ease off a bit of burden. now im here to guide her through everything i can. :]

patrick star

2008-08-06T09:21:00.000-07:00

big belly, small brain
yeah

money

2008-08-05T05:27:00.000-07:00

it makes people stress. it makes people wonder. it makes people suffer. it leads to suicide. if i've known better. if i knew that the country is going to do this. i would have taken action. but no. i had to use it to satisfy my needs. i was single for a very long time mind you. and now after the rise of gst. the raises the difficulty in obtaining the thing that matters in this country. this whole world. money. why. why so greedy. why are you doing this to us. you raise everything but not our pay. why. but you did raise the ministers may. which i find very confusing. my dad got his pay raised only by 50 dollars! he can even top up half of his car tank. im not being bias. im not being immature. im pleading for help. its even harder for the younger generations to get a job. polys are having higher and higher expectations for every intake. i want to spend freely. i dont want to worry about money. please help us. a small box of mini poppers for 6.05? a box of moo cookies for 5.60? i got them in malaysia for 2 dollars plus in singapore cash! urgh! bah!

less words, more pictures

2008-08-02T05:39:00.000-07:00

not the exact fun place to be in but good for photography sessions which the gf gave up because the lighting of the place sucks haha. :]

photos: fiz & ayuni

sorry i had to collage them. it will be nicer to see them as an individual picture. but i decided to collage them. lazyness to browse and upload. hehe. due to boredom we fooled around the festival.

photos: fiz
she may be small, but don't mess with her

not the wedding dress she'll want

HELP!

she's not playing, she's trying to get the ball out

soon after the festival we headed to our very own grocery shopping. she's craving for super rings. i was thinking of a place where that sells that food and also a place to sit.

photos: fiz

no super rings in the end. so we got other alternatives. a tub of pudding, two packets of 'dragon beard' and a huge pack of seaweed. :]

photos: ayuni

no picture of the seaweed though honey, why no seaweed picture? haha. :] and jeng jeng jeng! our snapshots. only the ones i can put captions lah ok! :]

photos: fiz & ayuni
i screwed up

i was only showing how boncet i am. honestly!

don't irritate her while she's eating

practice pose pengantin nampak! hee

she didn't get super rings

the story so far

2008-07-29T07:13:00.000-07:00

i don't know where to start. heh

nothing much has been going on. no friends now. gf is my one and only friend/ best friend/ teacher/ lover.

22nd july as some of you know. my birthday. something that shall not be forgotten. :]
surprise2. never celebrated a birthday before. da tua aru nk celebrate. haha. i got chocolates from carousel. huhu sedap lah sey. and photo cards made by her. touched can? we're watching sunset lagi. not really lah. would have been better if it weren't for that esplanade. hehe. thanks a lot h.b!! lyvvvvm!

few days after that, we went gift hunting for her mom. mama! happy birthday! well she cant see me till the next 5-6 yrs? insyaallah. she went to school. i searched high and low from orchard to dhoby ghaut. woo! excellent gift scouting by me. so the gf bought the things recommended. card from borders. wallet from metro. ex lah ok. and a "MOM ROCKS!" magnet. haha cute kan! and mama liked it! wooooooo!!!!!

so now we're planning for dora the explorer punye gift. suddenly bdaes are coming. wah!!!

its ok. i get to spend quality time with the gf now. :]

2008-07-26T19:52:00.000-07:00

one whole day by myself.
the phone's no ringing.
except for one msg from faizal. -.-'
besides that there's nothing.
only her chocolate gift and me.
but now it's finished!
only one person helped me kill time.

yeah. m shads.
sister's pretend boyfriend.
his singing kept me busy the whole day.
practicing, mimicking.
but,
his lyrics are so emo.......
didn't cheer me up one bit.
bi come home quick.... :(

out of nowhere

2008-07-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

without you, there won't be me.
without you, i can't smile.
without you, i'm not alive.
:]

p.s
please mom and dad,
i don't ever want to go to malaysia again. please. :(

turning over

2008-07-08T04:46:00.000-07:00

miserable at best. don't bother.
don't feel sorry for me. cause i'm not.

i'm a mess. never making anything go smoothly.
a burden. always creating problems for those around me.
even the important ones.

i now realized. i followed my "wants" too much.
these "wants" were never what i really need in life.
never what i needed to do. a discovery.

i now realized what i have to do. what i need to make up for.
because everything that is going way way bad right now,
started with me.

i cannot say i tried. because i never did.
i was never someone good. someone they thought i am.
i am always the bad one. the bad guy.

they needed more than me.
she needed more than me.
so here i am. after all the chaos i made.
regretting every single move i make.
regretting being me.
miserable as always, always wanting my needs.
always being self-centered.

what ever happens to me. doesn't matter anymore.
because what's important right now.
is being there for them.

wish god can send me to hell for a day.

dear god

2008-07-07T05:57:00.000-07:00

im still waiting for you, no matter what.
with my guitar, singing 'dear god'
i know my voice isn't very nice.
but who cares.
water droplets are rolling down my cheeks.

toothache

2008-07-07T03:19:00.000-07:00

when everyone's was happy going home in the bus,
i was the only one feeling miserable and holding back my tears.
it wasn't the toothache,
toothache is only a small portion of it.
its me.

tak sedap hati

2008-06-19T03:16:00.000-07:00

no phone, no internet
i start to worry.
i tried ways to reach you.
though I'm busy,
i still think of a way.
but still i failed.

miss you.
:(

in the middle of the night

2008-06-18T06:54:00.000-07:00

O batman O superman!
They are all my friend!

these came out in the middle of the night.
out of nowhere, without warning.
and it wasn't the first time.
even at that age,
the nonsensical nonsense keeps coming and coming.
making us laugh out loud.
no matter when or where.

she is.
supermom aka gf's mom.

i need to fcuk off

2008-06-14T05:21:00.000-07:00

i got a bitch for a sister.
i live in a family where everyone think they're right.

everyone think they are more important.
they follow one rule.
"my needs are important than yours"
but i cannot blame them.
i am the punching bag of this family.

gf is mad at me.
don't blame her.
she isn't the one to be blamed at all.
i am.

the dud. the jerk.
everytime things goes wrong.
it's my mistake.
i've always been the one at fault.
with her and my family.
even among my friends.
thanks to my selfishness.
something i realised.
i am the bad one.
the villain. im not a good guy.

the family will be happy when i'm gone.

let down

2008-06-07T10:50:00.001-07:00

sometimes i think i'm the biggest jerk in the world.
but now i don't.
because i already am.
all i did for others are nothing
but creating nuisance in their life.
making them stressed up.
when people mistakes can cause little stress.
mine can take a day or even..
i don't know...

i wish i was dead..
so i wont be able to cause any more trouble,
no more stress..
and everyone can live a happy life..

but he's not willing to take me in..
i don't even know why..
there's nothing i'm doing right..
just look around lah..
anything impressive? no
so why not take me in?

stupid. im stupid
moron. im a moron

someone take a gun and shoot me please

my confession

2008-06-04T08:11:00.000-07:00

you're all i have in life
you're all i need
I'm sorry

I'm such a waste

dugaan?

2008-06-02T07:35:00.000-07:00

either god's testing us
or
we have troublesome parent(s)

!@#$%^&*

2008-05-31T04:11:00.000-07:00

BORED!
IT'S TOO QUIET!
THE PHONE'S NOT RINGING!
AND ITS THE WEEKENDS!!

BI! CEPAT BALEK!!

ayat ayat cinta

2008-05-21T08:38:00.000-07:00

its only 5 days,
but i feel like its been weeks.
and finally we met,
all i can say is,
time was well spent. :)

disappointed with the school.
stupid. bodoh nk mampos.

today we watched ayat ayat cinta.
after so long cooped up at home,
im finally out. hehe.

maybe im not the type of guy who watch this type of movie
but yes, i did watched it
and i love it!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA

even though it was trying to complicated me with a bunch a girls chasing a guy. pffft.
it was damn touching lah sey.
i sadded tau. but i did not cry!! i swear. she did. alot. especially the patience and sincerity part.
and the show taught me some religious knowledge lah sey. wooo.

im tired now.
nk stop.
goodnight.
quack quack.

smile everyone

2008-05-16T23:48:00.000-07:00

everytime i make someone smile,
i lose my smile.
even when i fail.

and i failed again.
yet again.
in fact, i dont think i have ever succeeded.

im useless, i know.
you dont have to tell me that.
loser in life.

a body temperature of 42 degrees is all i need.
and i got it.
broke dad's record of 40.

mom said:
"pergi doctor lah. ibu ikot come"

i said:
"not this time mommy. i deserve it"

and from no where,
haziq aka naughty boy, my youngest brother, asked
"along sayang kakak ayuni eh?"

i just kept quiet.
my heart just tear apart.
being on a bad run,
i wanted to cry i know i do. but i didnt.

i smiled and hugged him closely.
and said:
"i love you and her alot. both of you are the most important people in my life"

maybe im tired or something.

to inah,
if you're reading this,
dont try and cheer me up.
cause i know you will but dont bother.
it wont work.

goodbye.

lalalaalala... what's going on bebeh..

2008-05-08T08:03:00.000-07:00

ok enough of pointless posts.
now lets start real blogging!
woo!!

past few weeks.
errr....
bad and good moments..
obviously, who can be really happy everyday?
orang giler lah duh.. -.-'

me and the gf been really crazy these few weeks..
making catchy tunes of our own..
making up stupid words... heh
running around chasing each other...
tickling each other...
disturbing each other...
danced together....
ouh wth too many lah..

mother's day around the corner...
cupcakes for our moms!!!
but next week aru buat lah...

then me!
slack everyday without a clue of what to do.
done.

till next time y'all!!!

a curse

2008-05-03T07:53:00.000-07:00

my words,

my actions,

they mess things up

gets worst

2008-04-21T09:00:00.000-07:00

am i in the right family?
why do i suddenly feel like i'm adopted?
i don't feel like i belong here.
i'm used and pushed around.
who are these people

HOT GAME!!

2008-04-20T06:46:00.000-07:00

there's a new game now.
and everyone's playing it.
its called,
damn fiz.
its easy.
you just have to insult him,
torture him, blame him.

dad started this game.
he's a pro already.
you guys should try it out.
because proven from comments.
fiz is a patient kid who forgives everyone.

extraordinary

2008-04-14T06:51:00.000-07:00

and now im ready to be,

extraordinary

out-of-the-blue

2008-04-12T01:19:00.000-07:00

lost forever
cannot be found
nobody can find me
hidden under the pillows

hee haw

dead or alive. i dont know.

2008-04-06T07:00:00.000-07:00

slowly,

its killing me from the inside,

taking away my breath,

it darkens my soul,

it just sucks.

i feel like,

am i needed or am i not needed,

the devil wants to bring me to hell,

i told him,

i survived hell on earth,

what difference does your place makes?

maybe i will be the one who will bring hell to you

moron

invisible

2008-03-31T09:20:00.000-07:00

all i wanted to do is help.

all i showed was care and concern.

all i need you to do is listen.

all i get was...

forgotten

2008-03-28T06:14:00.000-07:00

here we go
long long absence..
not only here but everywhere too..
working lah...
want super cheap nike stuffs?
com down to suntec atrium then. :)
till 2nd of april only ok..

gf's been suffering the most when im away..
cian dier.. :(
till 2nd of april ok honey... i promise..
then you can see almost everyday again..
and yes, i miss you dearly...
never forgotten..

but when things looks like its going smoothly,
it isnt, right now, im feeling dead.
i tried being good to everyone,
i tried making them happy,
but whatever i do, i failed,, everytime..
seems like what i did are all forgotten,,,
oh wells,, i know where i stand...

fullstop

2008-03-21T09:22:00.001-07:00

they've never contributed a fucking thing to the ones they love to criticise

makes me wonder

2008-03-19T08:25:00.000-07:00

getting rid of my temper

is it a good or a bad thing i did

even when im not a hot head

still people dared to look for trouble

so should i get it back or not

i wouldn't want to

i don't want to end up hurting the ones around me

but sometimes i think im being too lenient

i just dont know

i am

2008-03-16T11:46:00.000-07:00

like a man plagued with disease

and i love you to bits and pieces

always

:'(

you'll be in my heart

2008-03-16T00:14:00.000-07:00

Come stop your crying,

it will be all right

Just take my hand, hold it tight

I will protect you from all around you

I will be here don't you cry

For one so small,

you seem so strong

My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm

This bond between us can't be broken

I will be here don't you cry

And you'll be in my heart

Yes, you'll be in my heart

From this day on

Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart

No matter what they say

You'll be here in my heart

Always

Why can't they understand the way we feel

They just don't trust what they can't explain

I know were different but deep inside us

We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart

Yes, you'll be in my heart

From this day on

Now and forever more

Dont listen to them,

cause what do they know

We need each other, to have and to hold

They'll see in time, I know

When destiny calls you,

you must be strong

I may not be with you, but you've got to hold on

They'll see in time, I know

We'll show them together cause

You'll be in my heart

Believe me, you'll be in my heart

I'll be there from this day on

Now and forever more

Oh, You'll be in my heart

No matter what they say

You'll be here in my heart always

Always...

I'll be with you

I'll be there for you always

Always and always

Just look over your shoulder

I'll be there always

one sided affair

2008-03-14T07:48:00.000-07:00

very predictable
after what i've done,
i didn't even get a simple "thank you"
instead i got telling offs.
i feel like a complete idiot,
i feel like a dog,
what do you think i am?
forget it..
what do you care,
its always been about you you you you.
bitch.

from the start

2008-03-12T00:16:00.000-07:00

and i still remember how we first met,

our first date, our first movie

enchanted indeed.

all about me

2008-03-11T07:08:00.000-07:00

maybe its time to update you guys about what's happening around me.
:]

finally, im done with that bloody fyp.
thank god. haha..
stupid stupid CAM.
never will go right.

and soon,
you guys can find me working at nike from the 24th.
suntec nike bazaar.
nak discount, jangan malu2, tanyer je. haha

and yeah.
its no secret now.
yes. im attached. haha
everyone knows now.
but not too sure about my poly mates. hmm.

talking about them.
got feud lah sey.
dont want to talk about it.

till next time.
bye!

the target

2008-03-07T05:55:00.000-08:00

always a target.

pfft.

tell me something i don't know.

i have to get out of the house

she thinks she's ugly

but i dont think so.

unprotected

2008-03-06T05:25:00.000-08:00

stupid dumbass.

stab me in the back.

the ugliest couple you can ever find

2008-03-05T07:41:00.000-08:00

ugly right!!??

why was i stressed at starbucks?

KERRAANGG!!

2008-03-03T07:46:00.000-08:00

if i were to have a singing career,

i would love to have a voice like him.

M. SHADOWS!

avenged sevenfold's lead vocalist.

the thing about him that i like is,
not only does he have a great voice,
he proved the critics wrong.
he pushed metal to a standard that even,
rihanna, cant reach.
boo rihanna!!!

and i will choose my duet partner.
first choice. gf.
i know i know.
she doesnt have that rock voice,
but somehow i think she can actually sing.
maybe i should trysome new tunes with her. lol
and another one is

HAYLEY WILLIAMS!!!!
this punk chick really got the voice.
wooooo!!!!

2 girls and a chicken

2008-03-02T06:47:00.000-08:00

stupid face huh?

thats lil chicken!!

aka sha katak. heh

credits to gf. :]

ok.

found out something really really surprising last night.
thanks to aten that is.

she and gf really and i mean really

have alot in common.

1) both of them love love chocolates

2) when it comes to starbucks, they'll buy choc cream chip

3) they rather go to long john silver.

wowzer.

the new look

2008-03-01T05:48:00.000-08:00

finally, the living room and the corridor has been painted.
credits to me.
the cat man. (cat = paint in malay)
as what gf calls me. :]

to the particular poly friend.
he told me to think about what i just did.
before i could even reply, he went off.
so i say, why dont you think about it?
the victim isnt you, its me.
you started it.
blahblahblah. forget this.

to naanaa,
nana williams or what!?!?!?!?!?
unless you dye your hair orange and get a bit thinner,
then maybe i can call you nana williams. :]

to fee,
i want to sing i wont see you tonight!!
even thou i will definitely shed some tear. :p
but not like how i did during my recordings k.:]

during the recordings,
i didnt tear a bit.
i did it a lot!
and we were only at the second chorus. lol
that song somehow moved me.

so guys,
if you have not listened to it, please do.
song title: i wont see you tonight part one
artiste: avenged sevenfold
album: waking the fallen

to gf,
today is the day. :]
unfortunately, its a weekend. :(
and finally you got your kilo-nene bracelet!!
love you many many!!! :]

omg

2008-02-28T09:58:00.000-08:00

my eyes are tired,
they're red, super super red.
but still, im not asleep.
as usual.

a friend of mine told me her story earlier.
she said she's super stupid. why?
she said she was stupid.
cause when she found ot when she was pregnant,
her ex bf still flirts around,
coming back to her with lovebites and all.
then i told her,
"how can someone be so irresponsible?"
i mean, you did it, tanggung uh!!

so a ms to the guys,
what will you do if this happens?

if you ask me,
i'll do whatever a responsible guy will do.
even if cost my own dignity, or whatever.
its my mistake, thats my child, thats my gf, this is our life.

again, guys
WHAT WILL YOU DO?

*it will never happen. i hope

2008-02-28T06:19:00.000-08:00

we've all, been lost for most of this life
everywhere we turn, more hatred surrounds us
and i know, that most of just ain't right
following the wrong steps, being led by pride

for the gf,
you'll get you bracelet tmr ok honey. :]

you guys went too far

2008-02-27T22:17:00.001-08:00

alright.
i had enough of you guys.
say all what you want with your shit-filled mouths on me
but not on my friends!

its me you want.
its me you'll get.
so to all the pompous asses out there.
bring it

welcome to the world of blogging

2008-02-26T06:32:00.000-08:00

this is the world of blogging
people post anything they want to say or feel
and i did just that
and i got a nursery teacher who visited my blog
and this teacher is very unhappy
aren't they the ones who have to be really patient?
i think something is wrong in this world
but all i want to say is.
why don't you guys turn back time and recall
whatever insults you said to me
that really pissed me off
but still, i kept quiet.
make sense?
because i only posted one insult.
so if i can take whatever you said,
why can't you?
how sensitive can a guy be?
i thought only girls are the most sensitive species on earth?
dunia nak kiamat lah.... :]

nonsense

2008-02-25T00:30:00.000-08:00

i was bored in school as per-normal,

waiting for the time to go home,

waiting for her to text me,

so i decided to view my contacts on msn.

and i saw something stupid.

one guy wrote this on his personal message

one word = jobs needed

one word huh?

i think he skipped kindergarten

what a dumbass.

twin bananas

2008-02-23T23:33:00.000-08:00

as dad calls them,
"pisang kembar"

they're actually bananas sticking together.
literally.

and as i was about to eat them,
dad stopped me. :(

here's the conversation betwen me and dad.

dad: along! jangan makan pisang tu. Tu pisang kembar

me: asal tak boleh?

dad: orang² tua cakap, kalau makan pisang kembar, nanti kau dapat anak kembar

me: ok pe! hahahahaha. buat satu kali, dapat dua! haha

dad: *knocks my head*

dad: untuk kau senang, orang yang nak beranak tu yang susah nanti

and he knocked sense into my head.
i suddenly kept quiet, thinking.
how painful it is for someone to give birth to twins.
then imagined if i have a wife,
giving birth to twins, and i was beside her.
she got twins, shes screaming in pain.
i will feel guilty sey.
thanks to "pisang kembar"
:)

so those who want twins,
eat twin bananas ok! :)

angry

2008-02-22T06:54:00.000-08:00

fuck those cowards

meet, the crazy girlfriend

2008-02-22T06:41:00.000-08:00

boo fiz

2008-02-19T22:42:00.000-08:00

shoot me

relative rivalry

2008-02-17T06:41:00.001-08:00

i hate my relatives from mom's side.
i am not helping you all anymore!

hush

2008-02-16T22:03:00.000-08:00

ssh quiet, you might piss somebody off

bleargh

2008-02-16T07:01:00.000-08:00

im praying that the sun will never rise

i can say this week is quite a bad one

besides spending my time with ayuni lah

first of all,

i didnt know its be mean to fiz" week

ive got cold shoulders from some people

so i say.

go ahead, i dont care.

i know who i am

secondly, why am i being a jerk!!

the only one thing i hate about myself

im impatient

its causing me some problems

i dare not mention

saddened.

:'(

controlling your domestic partners and yourself

2008-02-15T10:22:00.000-08:00

im not asleep!!
i've got soccer at 8am and its 2.23am now!!!
oh wells.
sis came home at 1am today.
we had a small talk
about something everyone should know as they mature.
especially when you're in a relatioinship.

being too possessive
this is the major problem
any of both parties could be causing this problem
its like controlling your own partners life
cannot do this, cannot do that
wtf? close friends with their opposite gender also cannot?
thats too far for me. seriously.
i mean its like restricting your partner from making friends
or even keeping in touch with them
not that im saying its wrong
but being in a relationship, you need trust right?
you need to understand their needs
so why control them?
not that im perfect lah but its true.
even im myself can sometimes be possessive towards her
but you guys surely must trust each other right?
both boy and girl need to know their limits. duh!
and if you keep on being possessive,
hows your relationship's going to progress?
like what mom said,
if you guys dont trust each other,
why be in a relationship?
she got a point.
cause, what happens if you carry on like this after you got married?
its even worst am i right?
and thats too advanced for me. haha.
so people, dont control your partners too much cann?
it hurts to see someone getting heartbroken over this.
be reasonable. be trustworthy. trust your partner.
dont act childish.
and im not talking like my relationship is perfect.
we have our ups and downs. really.
you just got to understand each other thats all.
one way is talk.

and another thing is.
im getting very very boring.
i mean, i m starting to be a boring person already.
i dont even know what to talk about.
not only to her, to everyone.
*sigh*
help me. im getting boring

mallow blast

2008-02-14T05:15:00.000-08:00

picnic!
lucky not many people cann?
super hot!

this always happen

crazy gf

known for this

happy sangat ke?
just minding my own business

i cant find anything inspiring

so..

she's bored when im snapping

so we camwhored!

then we ate,
snacked,
UNO!
then back to pictures!

im not trying to snap my slipper ok
errr?

again, i got irritated by a bird
then kiter lagi lor

and the other pictures sucks
i dont want to show not nice pictures.
hee.
go picnic you guys!
2 cameras are enough.
two bottles of water isn't enough

it's still in me

2008-02-11T22:46:00.000-08:00

i will kill you
i swear

the place that holds my fears

2008-02-10T05:09:00.000-08:00

the vain one

the sotong

the mastermind

the mastermind's partner

the drugged

it was all black for us

the "minah" and the "mat"

dua² muker last warning eh.

the sister and the girlfriend. *classmates*

they are crazy ppl. 2nd time on viking.

what's this?

it was 3.30 am

2008-02-07T05:41:00.000-08:00

if you hadn't found me,
i would've never been heard,
i would be lost,
in this cruel mean world

two vibrant hearts could change

2008-02-04T04:20:00.000-08:00

it was something else

2008-02-01T04:13:00.000-08:00

great day lah!
kk it started off like this.

breakfast at macd amk.
nothing happened much
except that she spilled pancake syrup!!!
haha.
and we missed the bus.
so we waited and waited and waited.
took the bus blah3 reach the zoo.

and im telling you.
the zoo has changed a lot since the last time i went there
got the tix.
the moment we step into the zoo,
we got our photos taken by the zoo's photographers. wth???

and something just have to attract my attention.
theres this tamarin near the entrance.
it was super cute lah!!!!

its super super small!
mcm tikos! haha
then we got confused on where to start.
so we went to treetop trail.
the dunnoe what alligator look-alike thing!
super big lah!!!
if i fell into the water i'll die i think.
sadly i dont have the picture of it.
then we headed to the white tigers.
two words.
magnificent creatures
and we got confused again!
so we turn and turn and turn
until we stumble upon the ugliest animal in the zoo,
lazy, smelly and disgusting,
the babirusa
*eeewww*
then we finally got on track,
we headed to the gibbons
they swing and swing,
and hid. -.-'
but we got a snap of another animal.
close up of a turtle. LOL
then to the seals,
sadly, no seals.
only dirty manatees and two pelicans.
i think.
penguins.
cute but lazy.
and i saw something "else" goin on between two of them.
haha. find out what.
then we saw people running!!
why!!!???
its polar bears feeding time!!!
ape lagi. people run, we also run lah. haha
took me 4 types of running styles to get there,
she ended up laughing her way there.
it was cool.
the mama bear is small and shy.
the baby bear is super big.
the papa bear is dead.
and i got no pictures. -.-'
and we headed to errr..
just find out.
the monkey with golden hands and feet.
the sombong bird
close up of ground squirrels
the reptiles.
the komodo dragons are huge lah!
too far and i cant snap its photo.
but i got a few of other repltiles.
iguanas
and some friendly and hungry giant tortoises
the african nations.
i mean animals.
pathetic giraffes
stoning zebras
hungry and mean lions
last stop.
fragile forest.
animals running loose
she freaked out.
i got hit by a duck
she almost got hit.
kill the duck!
and finally.
us
heh.
reminder guys.
GO TO THE ZOO!!!

when i say it i mean it

2008-01-30T22:55:00.001-08:00

"nothing compares to spending my time alone with you"

it describes all

2008-01-29T06:11:00.000-08:00

"ouch"

taking heavy damages... by myself?

2008-01-25T07:51:00.000-08:00

im feeling useless now
maybe whatever insults i got were true

when sorry seems to be the hardest word,
it became much more of a useless word

pfft.
im talking nonsense.

and you guys should listen to this
stand by me by shayne ward

i know i know
laugh all you want
try singing it to someone you love
you'll understand what i mean

something im recording soon.
i hope.
piano and guitars done.
only my vocals.

*sympathetic*

rates

2008-01-22T22:53:00.000-08:00

this is how i rate the love for the people i know

80%: family
20%: friends

dont get the friends part wrong.
they are only for those,
who have gone through thick and thin with me,
knows my personal stuffs,
shared their problems and et cetera.

they know who they are.

as for her,
she lies somewhere deeper in me.

sick of being sick

2008-01-18T22:19:00.000-08:00

hee.

she liked it!
phew!

i said it!
took my whole courage to do that!

i love her!
hee.

and im down with fever.
what a bummer.

loneliness and tiredness

2008-01-16T04:55:00.000-08:00

mom's on the monday.
got her a gift.
but i cooped myself in my room pretending i wasnt the one who got it.
tuesday was her's
expecting a good day for the both of us.
even thou we didnt go out together.
but shit happens.
but tuesday,
really bad day.
suffered an aftershock.
bah.
im lonely and very tired right now.
here's a song i've been learning.
something similar to the song im writing now.
enjoy.

dear god - avenged sevenfold
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade..

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

** appreciations to fatin, naqiah and khaiman. :)

never good enough

2008-01-14T22:25:00.001-08:00

i am not like them
i will never be
i am just not good enough
not good enough for everyone
deemed a failure
in everything
:'(

a piece of advice.

2008-01-12T21:47:00.001-08:00

i can recall again,
he said,
"kau da ada tu, temper jager"

till now,
these words still sticks in my head,
never will i forget.

an advice from a friend,
a good friend,
one of my closest indeed.

he knows me,
he knows what i can do,
he knows what's best for me.

dedications to,
Noor Azhar aka Pablo.

thanks a lot brother.
see you again someday.
take care.

love

2008-01-10T16:13:00.000-08:00

everyone's been talking about love huh.
msn's personal message lah.
blog lah.
anywhere lah.

fizo pon nk talk about love lah.
haha

love
by definition it means,

1) a feeling: a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person
2) a term for someone: e.g "Would you like to see a movie, love?"
3) and many more definitions. heh

but whatever it means,
its a strong, strong word to use.
its a feeling that so strong that even hotheads can go into breakdowns

i started to know what love means not too long ago.

*flasback, way way back when i was everyone's advisor*

i was merely just a kid.
soccer is the only thing in my head.
but when my friends came to me, crying, needing help
i make time for them.
even if i have to squeeze it into my tight² schedule.
the thing is, i cant bare to see them shedding tears.
seeing their tears are just killing me.
yes my advices are like stabbing nails into your head.
but why would i use that time for them?
its because i love all my friends.
every single one of them.
im missing them now actually. heh
ron, wan, bungkos, fee, huda, sher, mun, an.
haiya..
especially, the people in nyp!!!
aten, rya, naq, seniors of mcg, MF!!!
i miss u guys lah!!
when oh when can i meet you guys again. hee

ouh.
helping people was only part of it.
this is a 'tragedy' that happened way back.
a year plus ago.

there's this girl.
and im not mentioning her name.
those who know her.
please keep it low thank you.

shes a girl from my school
not te typical hot babe you think i'll go for.
seriously. haha.
we started goin out when she was in year one. heh.
i actually forgotten when. haha
i didnt know it will happen.
but it did. i fell for her.
then it went on and on.
but i was so stupid to dump her for my ex
big big mistake fiz.
then when i finally snapped out of it.
i broke up with my ex and went back to her.
im cutting this really2 short ok.
so we started a r/s again.
boy oh boy i had no regrets for that period of time.
we didnt get on cause she said she's not ready.
and so i waited.
if i could recall. i asked her three times.
then when i got busy,
i hardly had the time to even call or text her.
and it happened.
i went online for the first time.
sis told me she got a bf.
i didnt believe it at first.
so i hopped into her blog.
and there is where i saw everything.

my wasted energy. my wasted time. just for nothing.
i was hurt that damn bad,
i disappeared.
vanished away from my outside friends.
i cant hide from poly friends at that time duh.
i quit the soccer team.
i hardly had any energy or mood to do anything.

so i vanished for a year.
once in a blue moon i'll go online.

and i recall agn,
hari raya.
the unexpected happened.
returned home from dinner with friends.
my sister and friends were raya-ing at my house.
usually i wont bother about her friends so much.
i was talking² to her bf.
then skali i feel like somehow i had to turn my head and look around.
i turned.
and there she was.
sitting on my second bed. the sofa. heh.
very very quiet.
and i became more and more distracted till i didnt even talk.
hahaha. nonsense sey fiz. but really. i was distracted.
i was thinking. who is she? ive never seen her before.
she and her big camera. haha.

and when they got home,
ape lagi.
i asked sissy who is she.
haha. got teased lor. but who cares!!?? ahaha

found her in friendster. heh.
then started chatting.
and she turns out to be loud!
haha.
and when my feelings grew.
i became more and more afraid,
afraid history repeats.

but.
i decided not to back away.
i gave myself a chance.

and till now,
im loving more and more everyday.
she never fails to make me smile.
someone who finally brought me to life.
a lesson i learnt a year ago.
and boy,
2 months knowing and loving her,
i never regretted i made that move.
hee.
and her birhtday's on tuesday and i still havent thought of what to get her.

HELP!!!!

empty.

2008-01-07T23:36:00.000-08:00

an empty office.

a quiet surrounding.

creepy?

no. its b-o-r-i-n-g.

the day started of real bad.

for me to know

for you not to find out.

she's got school.

i got work.

not meeting her till.

hmmm.

thurs probably?

open house.

not my house

but NYP's open house.

boring post.

i know.

i got scream playing over and over again.

just love the song.

and you people should start listening to it to.

not emo.

avenged are just misunderstood.

b-o

b-o-r

b-o-r-e

b-o-r-e-d

b-o-r-e-d-o

b-o-r-e-d-o-m

heh :)

wad happened at iap

2008-01-03T05:50:00.001-08:00

this happens.
all the time.
cannot be helped.
cannot be changed.

a lesson to be learn
dun fall asleep when im around!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA

*credits to azila too. -.-'
haha

new year. new things. new people. NEW NEW!

2008-01-02T18:22:00.000-08:00

people are blogging about what they want this year.
i also want to blog like them lah!! hahahaha.

2008.
8.
one of my fave numbers.
worn by many great players.
how i wish to be just like them.
but singapore's soccer is goin nowhere. hahaha
no offence peeps.

ok lets start!

1: GRADUATE!!!

im getting sick already.
i wanna end this now.
leave the skul for good.
no more studying or whatever shit.
NO MORE BOOKS!
however, maybe just maybe.
i'll be heading back to the books again after ns. haha

2: SAY IT!

ok i wanna say it.
this time, really.
haha.

3: GET A VACATION!!!

i want a vacation so bad. :(
please please let me have one before i serve my country.

2008. the year when i'll get to do little things.
see!! only 3 stuffs.
so i better spend them wisely.
save up cash so i dun have to go to work before joining the army/police.

hee.

i want my gum²!!!!

bah

2008-01-01T01:51:00.000-08:00

been long since ive updated huh.

lets talk work.
been smooth so far.
but not satisfied with it yet.
its not easy bt can be done.

hadnt been goin out alot nowadays.
sat movies with her and her friends.
wat the.
last minutes cancellations and change of plans leads to this.
my god.
so called 'vacation'.
and im still looking for a day to get my vacation.
away, far far away from you creeps and those fags dumb enough to piss me off everytime they see my face.

and eza,
i still haven't asked yet.
heh.
courage is still far from me.

and i want e bad me again!
please god please.
im beggin you.
its not working for me.
being clean isnt helping me anyway.
well, for one point which about her, yes.
but the rest?
no!
i got criticised, pushed around.
i want it back please!

before she go...

2007-12-19T06:30:00.000-08:00

my fave pic of her... so far...
heh.
love her many2 cann? XD

dun ask me about work.
sucks
haha

something to show the world

2007-12-12T05:59:00.000-08:00

this post is dedicated to a friend who wants to change to a minah.

in loving memory of fatin.

a talented young girl.

but influenced onto the bad side.

irritating.

she is now one of the weirdest species on earth.

remember the name

FATIN

bleed it out

2007-12-11T00:44:00.000-08:00

something for me to share with all of you.
im unhappy.
im not sure how i feel now.
but this is something i found out

when i joke,
people think im rude. senseless.

when i shut up,
people think im avoiding them.

conclusion,
what the hell am i suppose to do huh guys?!!

why am i the target for all the criticism???!
seems like everything i do is wrong to others.
why not i just cut off my throat and be mute my whole life!?

the big question

2007-12-10T05:42:00.000-08:00

as i sit down and relax,
somebody shocked me by telling me something nobody should know now
and she isn't the first
and i kept asking myself

how the hell did they know?!

.......

2nd day

2007-12-08T00:45:00.000-08:00

2nd day of being home alone.
BORING
she's goin to be away for the whole day.
i didnt turn up for soccer. AGAIN
hungry.
lacking ideas.
U!!! COME BACK CPAT!! I DA BORING!!

2nd week of attachment

2007-12-06T06:09:00.000-08:00

no updates.
people demanding for updates.
im tired to update.
and maybe now is the time to update.
haha

2nd week of attachment.
never knew attachment could be this fun.
huahuauha
bt i got a lot of work. duh
design this design that.
pecah brain.

went out a lot too tis week. heh
monday.
went to watch ENCHANTED with her.
dun start laughing coz its a good show man.
haha. i underestimated it i guess.
funny show but unfortunately, my coughing spoilt it.haha
she really made me forget how boring monday can be. XD

wed.
went out with her again.
tis time to the national museum.
why am i doin stuffs dat i rarely do!?
haha.
ok.
went there.
and we're so stupid.
hhaha
supposed to watch tis movie screening.
came late.
too paisey to go in.
in e end, toured e museum.
snap some photos.
haha.

maybe thats about it?

apologies to my mf mates.
terlajak tido.
alarm rosak tk tau knape.
apologies apologies many many.

tmr friday!!!

ERAya photos

2007-11-17T05:33:00.000-08:00

ERAya

2007-11-17T04:16:00.000-08:00

after much rehearsal. preparation.toilet breaks
it started and ended well.

ah wth.
GEREK LAH SEY!!!!
hahahahahah

crew ppl baek2.
show gerek
audience gerek.
budak2 gerek.
huhu.

but tats e good part.

e bad part.
all e people i invited DID NOT turn up.

im gonna kill them.

pics will be uploaded soon.

tc

fyp craze

2007-11-09T03:56:00.000-08:00

pics of MF raya PART 1

2007-11-01T02:15:00.000-07:00

raya raya raya raya raya raya

2007-10-28T03:21:00.000-07:00

finally..
e day arrived and it ended well..
well e day was yesterday...

it was e MF RAYA OUTING
started off at pope's house.

time set for meeting: 11am
time everyone met: 11.40am

hahaha...
as pernormal lah..
u noe malays..

not gonna talk much coz it was a really really long day..
e only thing i could say is,
we had fun.
we ate alot.
it was well-organized
and we really really reallly had FUN!!

woohoo!!

pics will be uploaded soon.
no worries.
still haunting them for the pics... heh

till then..
tc..

p.s smangat rayer da tkde. haha

pics of raya and open house

2007-10-24T23:22:00.000-07:00