.Friday, June 1, 2007 ' 9:05 AM Y
To the world:
im bloody tired right now..im stressed...and im feelin emo..well its not everyday u see me emo..maybe its bcoz i help ppl wit their probsand i looked like i dun have any probs..bt as a matter of fact,i do have my personal probs..everythin started on thurs...i was supposedly to go out on a movie wit this special person i know...bt she cancelled it coz she had somethin on dat day..if ur in my position,wat will u do?most of u will say,"oh, its ok. next time then. :)"but i didnt...maybe im stupid or i am already one BIG jerk.i blew everythin at her...i just had to follow my attitude... :sand i just got pissed off till today..it was my BIGGEST mistake ever...she was my biggest crush ever...e first gerl i had feelings for after my previous r/s..met her at my workplace..cute, short, and everythin i wanted...we got close during wen we worked together.. :)tats wen i realised i had something fer her...n still do...bt today,(or yesterday)everythin just crushed right in front me..tats right..u guys will say..'FIZ! UR ONE OF E DUMBEST ASS IVE MET!!"yeah.. maybe i am..like wat ive always said,i will never one to see anyone i loved hurt..bt i just did hurt someone...sleepless nites, losing my appetite and everythin..was returning home from work..i digested watever my fren told me..n yeah..wat he said was true...im a hot head..im dumb..im am watever bad things are...ive tried to make everyone happy..even thou im not happy myself..bt my loved ones are more impt to me...even if im nice to them, n they blast at me,i dun mind..bt now..pfft...put it simple...after e incident,i was regretting every single werd i said to her.i was close to tears wen returning home just now..swallowed everythin back in...n wen i saw azhar n his gerl..i was thinking..ive never seen him smile like tat wen he's wit us guys..other's smile just brighten up my life yeah... :'(n yeah...this is my confession...i REALLY REALLY like her..bt maybe now is not e time fer me..i got this feeling i will never be loved again...n i just wanna forget this love thing...and to shims..if ur reading this...yesthis is e fact...u may love me... bt u just came in late...im oh so sorry..i wan everyone to just FORGET everythin about me..n wat ive done...see ya ard guys...im gonna just spend my time alone now...